awakening

Even though it is March [gasp] already, i thought i would share with you guys what my new years resolution is. It's so silly but I never really feel like it's a new year until like June but this year with all of the changes going on in our lives everything has been new. I generally like to pick a resolution that is fun for me and that i can make exciting, and this year is no different! My past ones have been to make every meal more colorful, to try something new every months, etc. This year, i knew there was going to be a lot going on in my life that i just wasn't prepared for.

As my friends & family know, i am a pretty consistent, stubborn person. When i find something that i like i tend to stick with it and never change my mind, and i don't try new things very often. This year i knew that that just wouldn't be an option for me because i was moving completely out of my comfort zone leaving Oregon and all of my habits and go-tos along with it.

 So in honor of change, i made my new years resolution to be more open-minded.

I know this might seem like a pretty broad idea [and it is] but i wanted a simple phrase to repeat to myself when i'm scared and feel like retreating into a safe zone. And believe me, everything about moving is scary and unknown. So far some things have been easy, like being open-minded to eating sea food in a land-locked state [for my fellow PNWers you can probably appreciate how terrifying this is]. And some things have been really hard, like making new friends and opening up to people. But as i continually challenge myself to step outside of my box and be more open to the world, moving has become more of an excitement and less scary. I don't mean to say that i wasn't excited about moving, because i was, but for me whenever i venture into the unknown theres always a little voice in my head that says 'what if...' and 'wouldn't it be easier to...' I think a better way to say it is that this move has been challenging, but my sticking with my resolution it has been more like an adrenaline-heart-pumping-oh-my-god-rollercoaster-challenge and less of a 'im-too-scared-lets-go-back-challenge'

So here's to challenging yourself and keeping an open-mind!